The Narrative.

After the long hiatus...

2011-10-30T23:10:00.000+08:00

Hello world.

To speak the truth, I really didn't want to blog now because I have a Economics quiz tomorrow... until I realised my blog have been hacked by some 'unknown' people who added pictures.

Well, I guess that's the problem with going for a long break for blogging and having a weak password. But now my blog had been restored back to its good 'ol days.

So many things have happened for the past few months so I didn't have the time to update and my final exams are drawing near. I guess I can only do the updates after my exams are over.

Till then! :)

Post-Prom

2011-04-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

Hello world!

I am in a rather happy mood today because I will be blogging about my prom night in this post! Having met with my facilitators and friends, classmates was a really comforting experience because internship have kind of made me drift away from the fact that I'm still a student and I am still in the best years of my life.

I feel young (sounds weird) after meeting up with my best-est friends on saturday.

Let's look at the photos!

A day of ups and downs.

2011-03-24T20:14:00.000+08:00

Greetings world,

I’m in a quite mixed up mood today. :(

On one hand, I managed to do up my final adjustments and draft my PowerPoint slides for my tea session at HTCC on the 18 April. But on another hand, I have unconsciously made my friend getting pissed at me over the loss of her work, due to some saving error she made while talking to me.

Well, she has been pissed with me for the whole day already. I know I have a part to play in this incident (because I talked to her while she’s saving her work), but again, I feel that she have to bear some responsibility because she should not close her work immediately without checking if she has successfully saved her work. And besides, I just feel that she should save two backup copies (in both her thumb drive and computer) instead of just saving one. This is digging your own grave because if anything happens to your file then everything is gone. She should also rename her files properly what knot. It’s just because every time I contact her she had this ‘saving error’ problem, then I have to take the blame. It’s just not fair.

At times I wondered why people don’t look at the bright side of things. If I were her, I wouldn’t cry over spilled milk because nothing can be salvaged. At least you should thought: “At least I didn’t lose all the slides… I only lost some important ones. At least I’m lucky in this way.” And try to do up whatever slides you lost.

So it’s time to knock off. I bothered to go to her cubicle and ask her if she wants to go off with me together. She gives me an ‘attitude’ which made me kind of angry though I didn’t show it. When I asked if she managed to salvage more than 50% of the files, she told me this: “if I use so many hours and I still can’t salvage the slides, then what am I doing during this period of time?”

Whatever. You being the ‘victim’ don’t give you the privilege to give me an attitude lo. Furthermore, I offered my help but you turn it down. I tried my best already and if you don’t want to appreciate it. Then if that’s the case then I think I will just distance myself from you then.

A wonderful week spent

2011-03-20T21:52:00.000+08:00

Greetings world,

I have finally found time to get myself to sign in to blogger and pen my happenings this week. Looking at my blog, it has been more than two weeks since my last entry. I am 1 month into my internship finally! :) Things at work have been good more or less so far, and I have since fostered good relationships with my colleagues as well. We had a PEU badminton session this year (for the first time) and it gave me a good opportunity to 'shed' more fats. :D Look at the photos below!

Wan Ting told me she enjoyed the badminton session a lot because she feels that she have burn off fats in the process. But frankly speaking, I think I would prefer jogging because the whole body is burning fats in 10 to 15 minutes! Conversely, it took me 2 hours for me to sweat 50% lo! haha.

Ok next is the first episode of a chain of 21st birthday celebrations, starting off with Samuel and Chun Yuan. We had a birthday celebration at Eng Sam's place.

But the fun part will always be left at the last part...

Water, floor bag and cake attack!

Ok, I need to do other stuff already. Till then!

15th day of attachment

2011-03-03T20:55:00.000+08:00

Today marks my 15th day of attachment at PEU.

This is the first time I realized that I did not count the number of days left for the week. It is a good indication that I am finally getting to the work here and there. :)

But the sad thing is, I seem to have 'nothing' to do. LOL. Ya. I have done what was needed - the concept paper, the rules and regulations of the game, the surveys.... But I hoped for more things to do. I don't like spending my time there listening to music and surf the net. After all, they only allow you 40MB of space to surf and music does get bored after listening for long periods of time, isn't it?

And and, I can't seem to communicate with my supervisor. Not that he's a bad supervisor. He doesn't rush me to finish up my work. I just submit whatever work and he will just vet through and I will edit. We don't have much things to talk in common but I thought as interns, we should be closer to our supervisors instead of our colleagues, isn't it? I also feel bad when I said bye to my colleague and not to my supervisor, when they are just sitting beside in another room. AHH WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!

Yes friday is coming. And I need to work again on saturday to earn my allowance for the week. How I wish I don't have to do that. I think I look forward to Sundays more now.

Time to clear everything once and for all.

2011-02-26T22:39:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to start my post.

You might think that bullying me it's no big deal. But I had enough of all this nonsense. It's not like I have never mentioned it to you before. If you want to remain stubborn, so be it. The incident happened yesterday proves that you have no regards for others. Of course, you think that being warned is no big deal. But have you thought about it in my shoes? What if you were the one who suffer all this when it's isn't your bloody fault in the first place? I have to admit, I did make some noises. But, YOU, i mean YOU, were the one making the most noise. And what's worst, you didn't even apologize for the incident.

Putting this aside, you have always been the one who's creating trouble for me. Anything you want to tell me, tell me straight and stop all the mumbling.

I know condemning you out of the clique is impossible since you were all a bunch of good friends. I back out then, since I am the only person having problems with you.

How's the attachment so far?

2011-02-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

You know, sometimes I wonder why I chose to go on an internship, when I have the option of relaxing, doing the favourite things I like while waiting for university to start. After all, I have been working very hard for the past three years.

Maybe I did this because I want to kill time, since the opening for university would be aroung August.

Don't get me wrong, it's not that I hate the attachment, nor I can't make any friends there. In my attachment, I get to develop an activity for Out-of-school youths. Yes I know, it's meaningful by trying to make a difference in people's life by educating them in making the right choices in life. But maybe, I'm someone who don't get used to changes easily. After my final exams, I started on my attachment straightaway. I guess the fast transition have gotten into me, making me stressed up.

As I reflect in the life I had previously, I realized that my life is always moving very quickly. Just last year itself, I have to manage my FYP, band practice, schoolwork and part time work on weekends altogether. I think I need to get a breather. Then, I planned ahead and gotten myself an internship right after the exams.

I don't know if it actually worth it.

Now my university's application is in, paid. I hope I have applied correctly haha.

Roses among the thorns.

2011-02-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

Greetings World,

I have started my internship a day ago, and I must say it's a really hectic day! I spent my time in my office in the morning and went for the tea session in the afternoon, which is a meet-up with my other batch of interns attached to other units under the programme.

You might start thinking, why did I state my blog entry as such? Look at the photos (credits: PSC):

The room is seated with almost all guys (except me and Wan Ting)! I was really surprised that Wan Ting and I were the only two who got selected to do the internship programme! And being from polytechnic somemore! From their conversations, most of them came from top-notch JCs like NJC, MJC etc etc... Which made me think that we almost come from a different education background. However, I am very glad that despite the different medium of tertiary education, be it superior or not, we all came to the same common ground. I guess that should be something encouraging. :)

As for my project in the internship, I really hope that I would be able to do a good job out of it. This is the first time that I did a project from scratch - concept --> execution! Oh, how I wish I can forward time.

Time for sleep now. Nights!

Oh Dr Henry Grey, please bless me on my Anatomy UT

2011-02-14T10:46:00.000+08:00

Greetings World,

I know I shouldn't be at blogger on this very day (my test day) which would determine my final grades for my entire 3 years of RP. But I couldn't help but to come here to 'drown' my feelings of uneasiness for the impending UT.

I have been crazily revising my A&P UT since thursday and I managed to 'memorize' everything for this UT. At this moment if you would flip to any problem and throw me questions, I can give you an answer. From the preceding UTs I have taken, I realized that the problem lies with the way I answer. Perhaps this 2-modules-1-semester lifestyle got the better of me, and I lost 'touch' to the formula of writing good answers. I can't seem to get A for this module, except for the daily grades. I can't help but to be envious some of my friends who scored well for this module. Till this point, I have to admit that dense, heavy modules like this are just not my type. :( So, the title depicts what I wish from the founder of the anatomy.

As of now, my computer has been being very 'obedient' to my instructions, by not heating up too much and stop the flickering screens. Please, my dear laptop, do not spoil until tomorrow's UT is over. Then, I will promise to shower you with lots of love by letting you depart the IT world. You have worked hard for the past 3 years, my dear. :)

Ng Yan Ling, WHERE ARE YOU???

2011-02-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

Greetings World,

The situation about me not picking up my phone calls on my hand phone is getting so severe, so I guess I need to discuss about the topic on my habit on hand phones in this post today.

If you guys have my number and went out with me before, you would have realized that contacting me is akin to you buying lottery every week. You can call/text me lots of time but my reply rate would be extremely low, just like you don't win lottery on every number you bought. Don't get me wrong. It's not that I don't wish to reply you, but:

I know being lazy is not an excuse. But you have to acquiesce that I am not so attached to my phone. I can:

Leave my house without bringing my hand phone
Silent my phone the whole day
Not charging my phone until it goes flat
Leave my phone in my bag the whole day and not bothering to check once in awhile

It's quite amusing for me to do this to a hand phone these days because youths today are so attached to their phone and goes everywhere with their hand phone. But I resolved that I am not going to rely on hand phone too much simply because it is just a communication tool.

I have to admit that this habit of mine developed back when I was still in my secondary school days. In those day, all your friend are in the same class with you. Who would need to text one another when the subject you want to text could be just sitting everywhere around you?

But slowly, it has dawned on me that I really need to put my phone in 'music' mode because calls or messages could be important. For instance, I could have people calling to confirm attendance for certain functions. I could have calls from attachment company. I could have friends calling me to cancel certain dinner date last minute. I realized that I need to do something about it.

Rest assured, I have on my phone on 'sound mode' at this very moment. I will try hard (quite) to quit the habit of silencing my phone all the time.

A plesant way to say goodbye to A&P

2011-02-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

Greetings world,

I have told myself after I have graduated from my secondary school, that I want to make each and every graduation of mine memorable. After all, we can only spend the first ten twenty years of our lives studying. Upon entering the working life, we have huge responsibilities. Having photographs can be an avenue for us to get back to that nostalgic frame of time and relieve the good 'ol memories of the 'havoc days'.

As I recalled on my primary and secondary school days, I did not have the luxury of owning digital cameras and taking photos around the school, without getting caught by our school teachers or even having a laptop for our school (we don't need that anyway). I don't even get a sec 4 class photo or a graduation photo after we got back our O level results.

Thus, once I graduate from polytechnic, I must take lots of photos to let you readers have a feel of how RP study life is like. C:

So, being a studious and obedient student myself (ahem), I always think skipping class is a no-no. But to bring you the post today, I have decided to act out as a bad student by skipping my class today with my classmates (rare huh!). Let's start with the beginning of class....

We got a relief facilitator for our last lesson for A&P (Anatomy and Physiology, for those who doesn't know what this module is). She none other than my ex-facilitator for patient care. She was dull, uninteresting and I seriously almost got bored to death in class. So after the first meeting, the class had this idea that all of us should skip class for today. We started a conversation on MSN:

Then during the 2nd meeting, the facilitator continued to bore us further. This is like the first time ever that the class is soooo quiet! At the end of the 2nd meeting, all of us chao. But! Before that happens, that what we did in class...

Take photos as a class!

Played Monopoly Deal!

And I have taken other photos as well!

Then we went to W14N to watch movies such as Love Guru and Family Guy! Cool Eh!

Finally, we still got to do our RJs right? So the question for the RJ is:

Of course, I wouldn't submit my response this way. That's not right! But you are not me, so you can't see my actual response!

Alright, that all for my last day of A&P. Tomorrow, I will upload my last day for AI. Stay tuned!

No CNY MOOD!

2011-01-31T18:51:00.000+08:00

Greetings World,

I have decided to step in and write something on my blog after Atiqah and Fang Ling commented that I've not no 'hot' news to share. I can't disappoint my 'fans' though!

First thing. I have just woke up from a 3-4 hour sleep in the afternoon. Why? Because I have woke up in the morning at 5.50AM plus for a psychometric test for scholarships. Due to the rain, the bus which I have taken got caught in the traffic jam from PIE at Adam Road all the way to Commonwealth. Can you imagine how long the bus got stucked? Fortunately, I got into the Seminar Room just on time!

Talking about the psychometric test, I would say the first test is the most difficult of all. It's simply because, I am bad at maths! Besides, I have to answer 16 (I think) questions in 20 minutes! Being confused with the instructions, I wasn't able to do the test completely well. The remaining test were quite okay and I think it should be fine. :)

Next thing is the internships. They have called me up but I was sleeping and when I called back, the office is closed for the day. I feel so guilty because I might have delayed their time in doing certain stuffs. Heard that internship is bound on 16 Feb. Shall call back tomorrow to check.

I don't know if I am looking forward to internships because it means you got to start meeting and working with new people. But fortunately, it's an office job hour so I guess it wouldn't be as bad as my previous one.

I didn't want to end my blog entry by saying sianz but I have to admit that it is really SIANZ!

Look at that!

2011-01-19T22:56:00.001+08:00

I guess I got too boring.

So I played the MacDonald's miniature game.

Look at my current position (3rd)!

Christmas Party!

2010-12-28T22:14:00.000+08:00

Greetings World,

Now that Santa Claus have disappeared... I am looking forward to counting down for 2011!

But before I start to talk about my resolution for 2011, I would like to put up some of the photos taken from the Christmas Party I had with the BWLSS cliques!

We really had a blast as we ordered more food than what we can handle (with 2 KFC family feast, 3 pizzas (w/ lots of drumlets and garlic bread) and one unexpected Christmas Logcake!). In the end, we could only finish 60% of it. (It's a pity we did'nt touch the spicy drumlets at all! :'( )

Alright, here's the pictures:

(See! In the end we didn't open this at all!)

(Actually there's something I would like to reveal here, it's that I already know that there's a 'surprise' birthday celebration already. haha. That's why I wasn't surprised when I saw the christmas logcake.)

So, after all the eating, we played XBOX games then went off to sing at K-Box (damn expensive and I regretted going on such days when they jack up the prices).

But still, I have a great time. :)

Speaking of 2011, it meant a year where I would graduate (finally) from RP and start to plan out what I want to do for my future. Of course, lots of scholarship applications, talks on university courses and attachments have been flooding my school email, making me tempted to apply for it. I haven't got the time to weigh out the pros and cons and whether or not to apply for it, even though I know the chances of getting them are still quite small. I think I would need lots of wise people to advice me. :)

Christmas is next saturday!

2010-12-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

Greetings World,

FYP is finally over (cheerios!) and holiday have finally come!

Now, I finally have some time to do some blog post here. :)
Today, I have embarked on my 'secret project' which I have mentioned in the previous post.
Tomorrow, I 'm going to mail it all out!

Of course, getting their addresses have given my 'invited' recipients 50% guess with what my secret project is. But I do encounter funny people haha. With this project, it has shed me some light on how people react when they are dealing with information which they do not know what is it for.

For instance, Mr. A asked why he needs to give me the detail. Mr. B and Mr. C asked what is it for. But the rest just gave me their details easily. haha! So I concluded that, these 3 guys above don't trust anybody but themselves. haha!

Secret Project in Progress! :)

2010-11-30T21:06:00.001+08:00

Look out for your mailboxes in Dec. :)

Lousy Sunday!

2010-11-28T15:09:00.000+08:00

Greetings World,

Actually, my sunday supposed to be going well.. until the drizzle just now.

My dad complained that I have forgotten to ask my Mum to keep in the clothes hanging outside the window while he's out. Like WTH. I have been checking if there's any drizzle like only 2-3 minutes ago. The moment he came home it started raining. :( I got so short fused, I threw my temper. Please lah, it's only drizzle. And besides, the clothes are not wet even.

So I went back to bishan.

Ok fine, I know I'm short-tempered. But it's really ridiculous for him to quarrel over such trivial stuff. I had enough of it. Grrr.

Afternoon Bliss.

2010-11-24T13:11:00.000+08:00

Greetings World,

You must have wondered why I am blogging now. (Yeah.. FYP, Online Logs, Logbook)

But I have finished all this yesterday! Since Monday, I have been watching Korean drama for 2 days straight (this is something I'd love to do during school term, because it keeps me entertained. But ever since the inception of the project, I have not been doing so)! Other than that, I've always been facebooking, playing Treasure Madness and CSI Crime (yeah there is such a game).

[Why am I blogging such lame stuff here.]

Oh recently, I find some very interesting things Google Maps give us regarding directions.

1. Japan to China

Maybe jet ski across the pacific ocean is not good enough for you to laugh. Look at China to Taiwan.

2. From China to Taiwan

Who can swim 165km to taiwan?! I think most like the person would be arrested for illegal entry into Taiwan. Nope but that will happen if the person manage to swim for that long. After all, humans are not fishes. =/

But now they have improved! They advised us to take a ferry. :)

Reflection (Journal) [RJ] Time

2010-11-19T21:18:00.000+08:00

Have been procrastinating on writing my RJ since like 7pm.

WTH hahaha.

Realise I have been updating my schedule on this blog more often now, so if you want to (<s>ask me out</s>, which is quite unlikely), you can see my schedule section. :)

Schedule aside. Now with no band practice and tuition, I realise that I am quite free. I know what's making me busy these past few months.. work and CCA commitment. :( Well, good thing is that they have kept me busy and 'on the toes' all the time. It makes me into some super machine which can churn out lots of stuff.

I just thought of a good name for FYP (F*** You, Project!). Because that's the section in your 3rd year where many things screw up. haha! Nice name right! :D

But still, this whole year has been quite meaningful for me. I have learnt how to organize things (even better, (thank you!) :D ). But of course on top of that, I screw people too. :S

So from this post onwards, I shall put some of my favourite reflection journal topics for you to read. It's like a complication from all my 3 years in school writing RJs EVERY-SINGLE-DAY.

Ok, I shall write my RJ now. Ciao!

I LOST 2 MARKS IN MY UT. Grr.

2010-11-16T20:20:00.000+08:00

Ok the title says it all!

I know, some of you may find me being nitty-gritty over 2 marks, when I have done well for the rest of the test.
But 2 marks might mean a 0.5 grade increase!

It's ok, I still have 28 marks to continue (which is still a A).

Anyway, great news today! My team's data analysis have been delivered!

No Work Again!

2010-11-14T02:57:00.000+08:00

Greeting world,

Yes, it's 2.49AM showing on my laptop screen.

Today, I had a long list of to-do tasks today, such as FYP data collectin and meeting up with Samuel and clique for HQ's belated birthday celebration.

I earned an epitome of 'efficient' when I was tasked to finish up a scrapbook within 2 hours. But overall I did enjoy the scrapbooking session though I was quite angry in the first place because someone insisted that I am sounding him out regarding today's gathering. WTH.

But nevermind, I will settle between me and him.

Then, Jojo was persuading me to go to ITE band's concert because there was a complimentary ticket. Afterall, ITE was my alta mater and I ought to go and see how my unfamiliar (LOL!) juniors performed. But I manage to catch up with Joanne after the concert because she came down from CCK to bugis. LOL!

HOW NICE OF HER! (Jojo, happy right ;D)

After that, we just go to Starbucks to chill before we went home. So, I reach my 'dog-house' (my room is currently cluttered with lots of books and scattered papers) at 1.45AM.

So from now on till 26 November, I shall be in hibernate mode for FYP. Time to finalize everything and say goodbye to FYP(faster come because I can't stand it already).

JIAYOUS!

Symphonie de Republique IV

2010-11-07T22:04:00.001+08:00

Hi world!

Sorry for not updating my blog! I'm too busy to update my blog these days.

Alright, so here's my post with lots of photos from my reflections'10 band concert!
This is my last concert as a RPWS member. (If I return to play, I'm an alumni!)
I'm very glad that I've played well for the last concert. :)

Besides that, I would like to thank the following people for coming to my concert (which have also helped me to reach my quota of 10 tickets!):

1. Samuel
2. Edwin
3. Anthony
4. Eng Sam
5. Azmi
6. Makinen
7. Raymond
8. Mummy
9. Gabriel

Ok here's some of the photos taken on my concert (both backstage and with friends):

After the concert, went off with Samuel and clique. Edwin's going to NS soon so we went clubbing. :)
First time to powerhouse and was wow-ed by the blasting loud music. But it was sooooo cool!

By the way, schedule is updated!

Falling into the whirlpool of options and choice

2010-09-30T00:15:00.000+08:00

Ok, you have read my previous post that I am giving up on the attachment.

I didn't expect the chance to came running back to me. They offered to switch me to another company.
But well, I can't make my mind up. :(

Then, FYP is so tiring.

Talking about this, I become so tired so I shall go to sleep now.

Nights world. :)

2010-09-21T23:22:00.000+08:00

Greetings world,

Sorry for the hiatus in my blog.

Hmm. Wonders if there's anyone reading it but anyway, I just want to blog about my attachment so far.

I would say that it is not smooth-sailing ever since day 2.
My working hours are extremely long and I was shocked when they said that I have owed the company SEVEN HOURS! I am repaying 4 hours this week and I still have 3 hours being carried forward.

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS MAN!

I am only worked in this company for 6 days so far (barely a week) and I have already owed them 7 hours?!

I am so disappointed in them man. I want to have another placement to another company instead.
(I wish...)

So since I have filed a complaint to the lecturer and the problem has not been solved, I am working 55 hours a week. Ok then, so be it.

I think I will withdraw from the attachment man. Location is too far, and the treatment is bad.

What can I say? My previous attachment went on smoothly for 7 weeks and nothing has happened. But this attachment already has got lots of problem since day 2. How to carry on?

I better get some sleep now.

Nights world.

Music Exchange with the Hong Kong Festival Winds

2010-08-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

Last monday, RPWS managed to do a music exchange with the HKFWO, who happens to be the open category winner. I must say each member is fantastic. Everyone of them either graduated with a music degree, or as a tutor for music. Ms Ma, the conductor for HKFWO was someone which I thought was admirable. In the band scene, conductor was always male dominated. To be conducting a professional band at such a young age was so..... I salute her!

Ok, now the photos.

The double bass guy from HKFWO.

The trombone guy. Cute hairstyle am I right!

Amy, who taught me how to adjust my ligature so that I can achieve good sound. She's the concert mistress of the band.

Samuel, the guy that 'wow'-ed me during the competition during SIBF with the powerful Eb clarinet sound.

That's all for now! In the next post, I will update you people on my SAS academic awards ceremony.

Singapore International Band Festival (SIBF) 2010

2010-07-30T18:13:00.000+08:00

Just finished with SIBF for 2010.

WE'VE GOT A SILVER FOR THIS YEAR!

WE MAINTAINED!

We've beaten ACSI band. :) Initially, I thought we wouldn't do very well because there were a few hiccups during the midst of the competition on stage, such as moving of percussion instruments (which took quite awhile) and the 'screw up' of Chorale in Three Portraits. Eventually, it turned out fine and I was glad that we still can secure a 6th place.

Other bands were not bad too. The band which I was TOTALLY amazed would be the Hong Kong Festival Wind Orchestra. They can project their sound really well and the clarinet's running notes were sooooooo smooth. It simply links from the low notes in the clarinet and ended up with the high notes played by the piccolo. TOTALLY NO BREAKAGES! They turned out to be the winning band for the first division!

I had an exchange with them. Will update later. SO HAPPY! :D Enuff said, now the photos!

With Kai Boon from Philyouth. They got 3rd position. Congrats!

Lazy to upload the rest of the photos, check out my FB!

FYP Part 1 Assessment

2010-07-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

Today was such a fun-filled day with lots of laughter!

The poster looks so wonderful - it was printed perfectly and mounted. Compared to other team's poster, I find our team's poster looks best. (Not that I'm biased to my team!) Initially, all of us were quite nervous about the presentation. Fortunately, we were able to do a 2nd dry run at 8am plus. LOL!

The sheet which was supposed to be signed by 6 assessors after they have heard our presentation.

Our logbooks.

My team's pretty poster~!

The first assessor is a hard one to deal with - she randomly assign us to present the poster and if questions were posed and the respective team mate was unable to answer, she don't allow her fellow team mates to help answer! It was a totally a 'chui' session with the assessor and after the first assessor, we were worried that we would not do well because most of us stumbled at the point of presentation.

The second, third and fourth assessor were fine and easy to handle. I guess that's because they are not facilitators from our discipline and therefore could only ask general question pertaining to our project.

The fifth assessor was what I would say as the most 'interesting' assessor. He is very informal (in terms of attire) and he asked questions which are somewhat unrelated to the project. He focused more on our learning points in the projects and he is very impressed with our logbooks in the sense that he checked the 5 logbooks and realized every logbook were standardized and neat.

So, GREAT JOB TEAM!

After the assessment has ended, we went to 'tour' Singapore - To Sunshine Plaza, to Cathay, to Plaza Singapura, to vivo city. Took a photo before we left the place.

We look like new lawyers on the block, isn't it!

I have also took my 'lawyer' photo, nice right!

Ok, FYP assessment have ended on a good note. Tomorrow will be Singapore's inaugural Singapore International Band Festival (SIBF). I will be performing with my RPWS band and like what Gena has mentioned: 'We will be there and bring glory back!' RPWS can do it!

Wish us luck tomorrow!

FYP Report Submited!

2010-07-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

Slogged my life out for the last few months. I finally finished with my report.

Got the academic awards thing also. But this time round I don't know who should I ask to go with me.
Mum is not so interested about me doing well in studies.
Well, I guess that's what drives me to work harder.

PPP I must buck up this time round to compensate the D+ I got.

Viva la Symphonie IV

2010-06-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

It was a great concert yesterday!

I finally meet up with my long lost friends.... including a counselling talk. That's cool! :D

With Pamela.

With Christina, who's very reluctant to take photos!

With Hirda.

SANDRA! ((((: Haven't met her for so long!

Stanley, the co-founder of RPWS + my section oldest 'uncle' haha. :D

Terry. The most versatile senior I have met so far.

Li Min, my junior.

Azmi, the No. 1 fan for SNSD. Pink leggings! :P

MOJO JOJO. :D No la, she's not the villian in PPG. She's the prettiest audience I've seen in my concert yesterday. (Felicia is 2nd! :D So don't kill me)

FEL. :D My junior and khaki for being a blur queen. HAHAHA

Gabriel. Thanks for coming!

Group photo. Notice the red bandana on my neck. I don't think I look cool in that. Hmm.

WEI SHI! Haven't seen her for... 1 month I think!

I like this picture best. Our clarinet khakis used to include Kirsten, Jaron, Sandra. Now, it feels surreal. :) I hope one day, we will be able to play together in the same band. Yi Zhen and Punitha, come back soon!

Me with Punitha. First time I find her looking so sweet! ;D

Rui Qing! This is my second time playing with her in the concert. I hope she will be playing for SIBF with us!

Me with SIMON LEE (the best oboe player I have seen so far. Made me feel like playing oboe because I was too amazed with how an oboe sound.)

Me with Sherlyn. She's a quiet girl, but nice to have her around!

Yi Zhen! <3 I think the top looks damn nice!

I Wish...

2010-06-26T23:39:00.000+08:00

I will be able to play the correct notes in the piece ( I have to admit I did not practice as hard as I should.)
I will finish writing my logbooks asap.

Reflection

2010-06-25T18:31:00.000+08:00

As I reflect on my poly life for these past 2 years, it is pleasant to know that I have indeed achieved many achievements along the way. I have grabbed many opportunities that came along, and I am determined to work my way out to attain my goals.

But I am losing myself in the whirlpool of expectations. The signs have been clear all along; I have been working too hard and demanding others to move in my rate of work. I find myself getting harder and harder to communicate with others (except talking to my BFF and sec sch mates). To a large extent, I have to admit the malady induced by my expectation as it is now played a big role in the current situation.

Looking at my 2005 blog entries affirmed that my ending of education life have to be going to a university. There and then, I was worrying over my maths paper because I was a weak student. Ironically, I wasn't panicky as I am just an average student. I do not have to worry about how I would fail others.

I set aims for myself, I work towards it so as to meet my goal. Sad to say, it is all passé now.

Fast forward to 2010, I was working very hard - to meet peoples' expectation. I can't stand if people are working slower - I'd rather work it out myself. I have since then transformed into a selfish creature that is self-centered. I calculate the numbers of As I need to achieve to predict the overall grades I will be getting.

But when the truth hits home, it hits hard. A D+ in my test.
Yes. I can't acknowledge this 'failure'. I would think to myself: "if I can do it all the time, what happened this time round?" "What have I been doing?" I cried. Because I suddenly became nostalgic of my previous life (the relatively carefree secondary school days - gosh, those were Halcyon days), my old friends and the people around me.

Despite that, I know I will get better. Soon.

If we pretended that...

2010-06-18T15:50:00.001+08:00

Saturday Day Out!

2010-06-03T23:50:00.001+08:00

Last week's saturday ended with a bang and soothing dose of nostalgia as I spent my day with my beloved secondary school mates and classmates. :)

The gathering started off with the 'food tasting' at Expo. LOL. Well, I would say it was my intention of going to the expo because I wanted to look at the Netbooks and 'License 2 Play' fair. But in the end, none of the netbooks caught my eye. So, we went to the next exhibition hall, food expo. There's lots of food sampling at different booths. Benjamin, Edwin and I kept buying food while sampling the drinks. :D Then we went to the 'popular' fair and John Little fair, and we saw Abel.

The second stop, Changi Airport! Well, we didn't want to go that far and well, we just stroll around the three terminals. Had our dinner at some restaurant in T2. Alright, here's the photos.

****
Anthony told me something that he has noticed since a few months ago and I must admit I am still shocked. I didn't really care about what was happening and I always thought that was nothing. Suddenly I feel that 'at least I'm not so bad ar.' Haha.

Listen up.

2010-05-24T21:43:00.001+08:00

To: YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

Please know your limits. These days I have been the person doing many of the jobs alone. Please do understand that this is not just my work, but it is equal work shared. What have you done so far?

You never know that I'm tapping on my family members to do up the results. I do not think that my family and I should be responsible for the work that was not done. I have done my part.

Please know that everyone has its own limits and YOU people should know that you need to use your own discretions when doing your work. I cannot be the one that is doing up everything. I am sick and tired of telling you people over and over again on what is the method to do. You guys just seriously don't get it.

So, I chose to be silent. I have decided to do up the things myself. I can choose not to share with you morons the information. But I didn't. I will just suffer for another 6 months and ciao.

Regards,
Yan Ling

★ Gazing

2010-05-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

Greetings world,

I have gone to the observatory @ science centre to observe the different stars.... (like mentioned in the CE activity). But in the end, we see the different planets. I must say I really enjoyed the activity. At least it put my mind off school work.

Now for the photos!

Ok see the rest of the photos on fb.

I SURVIVED MALAYSIA.

2010-04-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

Ok I know that's a very bad title to begin my post with.

Yes, I survived there.

Having to play 4 roller coasters in a day, I would say that it is an achievement.

Let me explain to you the level of the roller coaster:

Level 1: Mine's Train

Level 2: Cyclone

Level 3: Corkscrew

Look at the height for level 3! Looking back, I couldn't believe that I went to play that. I was totally not prepared! But still, thanks to the clique, I manage to overcome my fear of heights and speed. Now even when my friends tell me: 'I am not scared of heights but I also don't dare to play this, and yet you play this!'

* A sense of achievement came into my mind... hehehe.

Ok that's about all. For more pictures, refer to facebook.

Now I might start to blog less often, because I am busy with FYP and school. :)

Second Last Day Of My Attachment :(

2010-04-05T21:24:00.000+08:00

Greetings World,

Time to do a write up about my attachment days.

Looks like I need to put in some photos isn't it?

Ok, here it is!

Towards the end of the attachement, I would like to thank all my colleagues back at Ren Ci (the pharmacy technicians, Vas, Min, Ley Hoon, Seow Yen, and the pharmacists there!

They have helped me a lot during my 7 weeks there.

Although my attachment is shorter than my friends out there having attachment, but I really learn a lot of things from them.

I transcribe prescriptions.
I pack medications.
I deliver drugs.
I give presentations.
I had a fun time chatting with the them during lunch.
I learn how to do the actual work of a pharmacist.
I got inspired and realizes that this is the kind of career I want to get into.
I want to study even harder to become a pharmacist.

On top of that, the person which I felt most grateful will be my perceptor.
Although she strict at times, but it is because of this personality that made me learn many things there.

I will drop by to the pharmacy as and when I will be heading down! :)

Jubliation!

2010-04-01T19:47:00.002+08:00

The data collection forms for FYP was accepted!!

The IEP report was vetted!

Finally now, everything went on smoothly!

Frustrated!

2010-03-30T13:40:00.000+08:00

Oh wells,

I think every FYP team feel this way.

UT3

2010-03-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

Greetings world,

Yan Ling is pleased to tell the world that she has done really REALLY well for the past semester!

(not advised to tell here haha)

She would like to thank many people for the help during the semester, they are:

her facilitators for the guidance and help throughout the 4 months
her classmates for coordinating with her,
her friends which have been putting up with all the nonsense she gave (incl. not turning up for many gatherings)

Say bye bye to year 2 and hello to year 3!

People used to tell me, year 2 is a tough year.. but, I soar with flying colours! :)
So, I wonder if I'll do well in year 3... not the modules that I'm taking, but the FYP. It doesn't seem to go well now. I'm worried.

(No wonder Anthony said, I never stop worrying.)

Redeem myself!

2010-03-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

Like I said in my previous post, I am going to redeem myself on friday.

AND I DID IT!

I'm so glad that she said it's ok that I wasn't able to get the points and answer her question on the spot. Afterall, people learn from mistakes. And what contradicts from her previous day comment is that she printed out this whole report to read! Initially she said that I will have to delete my slides if I can't get the answers, then now she said this report was very good and it hits the spot (of why this research need to be done).

Well, I am happy that I redeem myself this time round, but at the same time, I think I have been 'marked down' already, for not doing well in this presentation.

Would like to thank Ant for the late night counselling. :)

Busy day writing up logbooks at work.

2010-03-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

Greetings world,

Today is not a smooth sailing day.

The presentation sucks, or should I say, none of us pull through?

The first few slides of the presentation already got the mistakes, rephrasing here and there.. and when it comes to my slide I don't like the fact that she told me that I 'either find out about my slide or i delete ALL the slides attached to the journal.' This is like not recognizing someone's effort! Ok I know she's been nice to me these few weeks, but even so this should not be the way! Perhaps, I should look from this viewpoint - she knows that I have more information than other team mates about the nursing home, thus she expects that I do better than anyone else. Yet I falls under.

Of course, the mighty me will not give up on this. I 'dig out' all the information from that technical report of course, and I manage to find out about ALL the questions she asked me today.

I will explain myself tomorrow.
I will not let this issue go away! This is so unfair to me!

Stay strong eh! :)

Busy Busy Holidays!

2010-03-01T21:53:00.000+08:00

Down with attachment.
Down with FYP.
Down with tuition.
Down with band.
Down with work.

So busy la!

I don't ~~really~~ even get some time to rest!

You know, sometime as I lie in my bed, I fall asleep at that instant!
And I refuse to wake up when the sunlight beam through the window.

But attachment at RenCi was fun!
Today, I learn about packing of drugs, bringing the drugs to the ward and let the nurse sign, do audit, learn how to read the patient's IMR.

But of course, it also leads to prolong standing and my feet got sore after that 8 hour plus of standing.

I love there!

A Happy (not) Chinese New Year

2010-02-16T19:10:00.000+08:00

Greetings world.

Understanding Test is over! Time to take a real rest...... maybe not.

I just had my first FYP meeting last wednesday.

Attachment is starting tomorrow.

Giving tuitions tomorrow as well.

Suddenly I feel I haven't been shrugging off my burdens.

New Year is fun I must say, having to meet my toddler Jeremaiah was nice! He's so cute...

You know, kids are very smart nowadays. My 4 year old cousin knows how to play games on his parent's IPhone, playing tap tap revenge. haha. :)

But! I was amazed when he said 'what the hell!' in his cute kiddy voice.

(hah! where did he know how to say this?! hmm.)

Oh, my relatives say I look identical to my other cousin, Vivien.

Ok, up to you to see. Because I really don't think we look alike!

The ang pao collection was okay.

I mean, I get the same number of ang pao from my relatives every year! What's there to celebrate (unless I got a bf, which can gives me more trip to collect ang paos. haha)?

What matters is not the number, but the amount it contained... LOL!

***

To you (you were never there, so I shall write to empty my mind),

I not going to go against the current and argue with you already.

(as if there was a REAL current)

Ok, I admit that I was hot-headed on sat.

But, that doesn't mean that what I do was all wrong.

I apologize to you already, and you admit that all of us were not in the mood.

Ok, fine.

Like my mum said, I am already leaving very little time for myself.

I'm stuck with 2 bands, 1 intership and 2 part time jobs.

I don't want to spend my energy and argue and spoil the friendship.

I would rather give up what I have in this team to save the 'minimal' face I have with you.

If your comments are good, rest assured. I will take in your recommendations and discuss.

But I hope from this incident, you will start to respect me.

I am going to sit down peacefully and listen to you.

And I also hope you will not do 'funny things' to jeopardize your team member's grades.

That's not fair.

Peace out.

The UT Week.

2010-02-08T17:03:00.000+08:00

Greetings world,

Yan Ling has been obedient - she has been mugging at home these few days.

The first 2 UTs are fine - all do-able and work-able. Although she lose abit of marks here and there, but she tried her best and she is not regretting it. She has been pasting lots of post-it on her screen to remind her not to make similar mistakes again, like this:

But at the same time... she can't stop doing other activities, like...

Treasure madness! When there are no treasures, it's ok.. but,

when there is a game, she's going to play!

Study hard now!

A rampant week.

2010-01-28T17:09:00.000+08:00

Greetings world,

Finally I managed to get some free time after school to write an entry in this 4 year old blog of mine.

I would say that this week is definitely not smooth sailing - instead, trouble accumulates and it snow-balled into bigger ones.

I just don't like this. Everyone's mad at one another over matters. UT3 is coming! I do not want to get emotionally caught in these matter.

But I always believe, when troubles come in place, two parties are at fault. For instance, if Guy B did not told anyone about the video, girl A would not be able to find the video link and girl B will not be able to publicize to the whole class. Similarly, Girl A should have not told girl B. Girl B should not publicize the video to the whole class because guy B does not know about it.

(Please ignore the paragraph above if you do not understand what I am refering to.)

Somehow I like being neutral.

Why? Because I don't get emotionally caught up, taking sides, confronting and making everyone lose trust in you.

***

Ok, I bought 5 pieces of jellyhearts yesterday! It's really nice - not so sweet! Let me show you the picture:

But quite expensive! $1 for a small piece..

Nevermind! I shall go and learn how to make one!

Got to go for band already, ciao!

I know what to choose for my modules already!

2010-01-20T20:48:00.000+08:00

I am so happy... you know why! (As the title states.)

After much thought, I have decided to choose the specialisation in Complementary and Alternative Medicine.

I want to continue pursuing a bachelor in pharmacy and I after talking to the facis, I realise I need to get modules which I can manage and get certain modules which are essential for my degree in the future.

Complementary and Alternative Medicine option is less tougher and it's something I can manage.

SO!

I'm going to take these modules next semester:

A371 Pharmacotherapy and Pharmacy Practice

A374 Complementary and Alternative Medicine

S201 Health and Wellness

G301 Project I

Plus!

Pharmaceutics.

I'm glad that the decision is made a few days before the deadline for module selection.

Now, time to stress over UTs and ensure that I do well for the remaining semesters in RP.

Ciao! :D

By the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAN TING!

Mirificus 10!

2010-01-17T14:34:00.000+08:00

Mirificus 10 is over!

I'm glad that I have joined this project. I have never looked back and I enjoy playing with them! I've made new friends there and I hope to join their future projects in the coming months!

The songs that I've played yesterday were:
The Women in White
Who's That Masked Man?
Rhapsody for Euphonium and Concert Band
Pirates of the Carribean: At World's End
Miss Saigon
Madonna: A Concert Tour
Tales of a Small Town
Love So Sweet

HAHAHA, okok apart from that, what makes my day will be sitting beside 2 pro players, chee hao and the primary school teacher (don't know what's his name). LOL.

OKOK, now for the photos.

(Ok, there's one photo that I really like in this series of photos. hehehex. But i won't tell you!)

I LOVE THEM ALL!

My next concert will most likely be back at RP's Theatre with RPWS.

If there's a chance, I hope to be back at VCH for concert!

THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO HAVE COME DOWN AND SUPPORT ME!

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

2010-01-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

I really hate myself now.

WHY ON EARTH DID I NOT REMEMBER THAT 1G OF FAT = 9KCAL.

WHY ON EARTH I LOSE 6 MARKS JUST LIKE THAT.

THIS IS UNFORGIVEVABLE.

I CANNOT SEEM TO CONCENTRATE THESE DAYS AND I REALLY HATE IT.

WHERE IS MY FOCUS!

THAT'S WHY I DON'T WANT TO LET PEOPLE KNOW MY GRADES.

FOR A MOMENT, I BEGAN TO YAYA AND MY GRADES START TO DROP.

NG YAN LING, ONE MORE TIME... YOU MAKE SURE YOU GO HOME STRAIGHT AFTER SCHOOL AND NO MORE BAND FOR YOU... NO MORE DRAMAS AND GAMES AS WELL.

YOU GET IT?

WHAT A MISTAKE I MADE!

2010-01-13T09:15:00.000+08:00

I really hate myself for answering a question wrongly!!

I lost 4 marks just like that.

It's a calculation question, and it's listed under section B, which means it's optional (I DON'T HAVE TO DO THAT YOU KNOW!)

When I knew I don't know how to do the question, yet I am still stubborn, wanting to finish the question.

basket.

30-4=26.

That's the max that I could possibly get, if I get the rest full marks.

But who would get full marks?!

Hopefully, it doesn't affect my grades greatly.

And thankfully, I had A for the first UT. So the effect might not be that great.

Car Ride! :D

2010-01-05T13:52:00.000+08:00

Last sunday was a fantastic day for me!

After band, Jo and I have taken a ride on Gabriel's car. It's like wow, people my age already got their driving license!

I feel like as if I have roam around Singapore that day!

We went from Toa Payoh, all the way to Tampanies, then back to City Hall Area.

Had our dinner at Pastamania, then visit Felicia!

She's like so happy and surprised to see us la!

Ok, after that, went all the way to Tampanies to go IKEA but unfortunately, we had no idea how to go there. LOL. So we went to Changi Airport to look at planes... not to mention photos!

Ok see ya!

A conclusion for 2009

2009-12-31T21:29:00.000+08:00

I'm in a dilemma on how to write my last post for 2009.

So.... let's talk about my achievements.

After the first semester in my sophomore year I got into the Rolls of Honour again with the GPA of 3.8. I got really happy, because throughout the semester, I struggled though due to the weak foundation I had in chemistry. But, I got great help from people like Mai and Vincent who were good at it. At this juncture, LOTS OF THANKS from those who have helped me in a way or another. :)

I have also attended the Awards Ceremony held in school. For getting into top 10 of my diploma. I know I have to continue to work hard for this year as well. I don't want to disappoint people who were having expectations of me. :)

I have also ended my office from Section Leader. I must say it's a really rewarding experience, and I was glad that I was given the chance to guide them along - from the Hong Kong Trip and Viva la Symphonie. I hope we will continue to do well and go into greater heights.

And, let the bad experiences go away. Thanks for making it memorable. :)

Plus, the formation of 'The Allies n\/n' were memorable. I really enjoyed the company.

I didn't went for the speech during the AGM nominations this year.

I made the right choice.

I hate people chasing you around for things (not that I delay things). But I still prefer to focus on studies first.

Every year the committee will have some problems, so why join! haha :)

I have made awesome friends every year. This year it will be...

THE W54J CLIQUE!

Let me tell you, they are the only people that makes me feel like I'm part of the class.

I am very comfortable around and I love being in a class like this!

It's not like W56D is not good, it's just that I got into this class after everyone got their own cliques with their own class, thus I feel like I'm just there 'for the season'.

And... my closest buds in W54J were the first to celebrate my birthday!

Thank you!

I hope the next year will be another great year!

Now is the things which I hate to say - the things which I have regreted.

To you, I've glad that I have finally overcome my thoughts and I hope you have really started building up your self-confidence and well, things have passed.

It will not turn back.

Even though it's now impossible to achieve, but I will keep those memories etched.

Today will be the day our great relationship started.

Thank you for the memories.

A wonderful night with the clique :)

2009-12-29T22:54:00.000+08:00

Raymond and Lao Da is back in Singapore!!!

I guessed they got too 'relaxed' back at Cambodia, they will go on and on about how the pace is slow over there, and it simply makes me jealous! How I wish I had went there together with them.

GROANS*

We had dinner at an awesome place, which I have neither heard of nor been there... Makansutra! The seafood were far too nice to describe and I had lala for the first time! The night view is just like what is shown above. :)

By the way, school's starting in around 4 days time.

I can't believe I have 'forgotten' how I do my presentations. Haven't started mugging for upcoming tests too. OMG.

Shameemah told me that there's this tutoring job. I was so interested! But then again. I haven't written my resume. And I don't know which days I will be given if I had this job. I wouldn't consider it as a job. As the job scope is to tutor kids who needed financial help. I feel the urge to help. Afterall, it's only 90mins per session. haha.

Let's see... if I took up this tutoring job:

1. I will not have any time to watch my 'temptation of wife' drama.
2. No time for recreational activities. (What am I talking, ins't that refering to blogging and drama?)
3. Increase in stress due to school, work and band. (Currently, I guess I'm the only person who's jam packed my schedule.)

Ok, enough said.

Gets back to main topic.

WAIT TILL I GET THE JOB FIRST AND START PREPARING FOR SCHOOL REOPENS!!! HAHAHAHAH

Meeting up with the band clique :)

2009-12-24T14:12:00.000+08:00

Went to Din Tai Fung instead of YCK for our buffet session and I must say it's really nice meeting them!

I like the last photo here because I find it artistic. haha.

PS: Felicia, thanks for the christmas card! It's so nice of you la!

(suddenly I feel guilty for not sending any christmas cards every year. LOL)

The Dollhouse

2009-12-19T20:55:00.001+08:00

Finally, I got my new camera, the Nikon S220!

Here's a photo of it.

I didn't expect my mum to agree to it so quickly. She said it's a reward for me for doing well in school. (But the contradiction is, she doesn't really care about what I score in school, even an A don't give her the surprise.) Well, I'm still forking out using my own money, so... ahhh!

I took some time to try out my camera, taking pictures here and there around the house.

Let me show you my 'mysterious dollhouse which I am supposed to show it to you awhile ago.

The Bedroom.

The living room.

The dining table.

The overall!

Post Birthday

2009-12-17T16:03:00.000+08:00

Greetings world!

I had a blast with my W54J clique yesterday.

I didn't know there was a surprise thingy coming up for me. hahaha..

Thinking back, I should have realised it earlier lor!

How can going to a toliet takes like 1 hour plus!

The water gun thing is damn fun! All of us got wet! Kennia and Job were the wettest among all and luckily the birthday girl, AKA myself, is not that wet! :D

Go over to the facebook to see the photos alright!

Loves, Yan.

Loss of words

2009-12-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

Greetings world.

Heard some bad news just now and I really got scared out of it.

The line between being healthy or not, life or death, happy or unhappy - is really thin.

She prays and hope that her mummy will be really fine now, and she'll start taking care of herself.

There are still so many things that I haven't do for her. I want many more years to come.

Although it's just mild, but there is a chance where it can develop to the worst cases. Now is still not so late.

I just want to apologize for always getting home late and night and being stubborn at times.

Come to think of it, I haven't been spending enough time with you.

I promise, that I will not attend the community band practices after 16 Jan concert.

PP = Pass

2009-12-11T21:46:00.000+08:00

Greetings world!

Yanling passed her PP. Results are out on thursday!

Yan Ling would like to thank everyone who has helped in a way or another during my PP in progress.... and her mum, who came down to Sunshine Plaza to accompany her to print her poster.

She wants to buy the Sylvanian Families Willow hall on sunday!

New blogskin for my birthday :)

2009-12-09T19:19:00.000+08:00

Greetings world!

I have change my blogskin to something black and white (but I'm not being emo here) because I find the design really classic - something I have been looking for thrilllion years.....

Oh, the photos for Standard Chartered Marathon. Here it is! Credits to Raymond :)

I haven't really studied for my Pharmacology and Toxicology UT2 tomorrow.

Ahh, holidays come to me.....

Standard Charted Singapore Marathon :)

2009-12-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

Finally woke up from sleep just now.

Yesterday was a really looooooooooong day, I go to work at 10.30pm, leave halfway at 5pm, prepare for Scherzo 09 for Moulmein Wind Symphony at 7.30pm, then leave there at 9pm. Went home for a quick shower and dinner (my untouched Macdonald meal bought before the concert) and out of house again for SCSM 09.

The most tiring moment was during 6am. I guess that is because we are all despatched and I was alone by the highway of ECP. It was chilling cold and I got terrified due to the 'unstable' highway. LOL. (I want to take a quick nap also don't dare. haha). Owe it to batophobia. Grrr.

But anyways, nice view up there at the ECP. It was close to the Singapore Flyer and the IR. It was a rare chance to step on the expressway! I shall show you nice pictures soon! For now, just 2 pictures!

Birthday is coming!

2009-12-04T21:50:00.002+08:00

^^

As the title states, birthday is coming!

I have already planned out my birthday wishes and my wish have finally come true - having my Sylvanian Families dollhouse! I have always wanted to own a doll house where I can manipulate all the furniture.

The thing is, it comes in with lots of items!

There are houses, hotels, hospitals, restaurants... etc...

Let you see a picture of it!

I guess I love playing dollhouses because life isn't perfect. When playing dollhouse, I get to make things the way I want. Haha!

Looking forward to meet up with everybody when holidays start next week!

Dad and Mum, buffet soon ya!

***

Am caught up with so many things tomorrow, work, band performance and marathon. LOL!

Symphonie de Republique III

2009-11-08T22:30:00.000+08:00

Concert has finally ended yesterday! :D

Here are some photos for you to see, since I haven been updating on my blog for like 'eons'...

Thanks everyone for coming to my concert yesterday!

By the way, I'm going to play for Moulmein Wind Symphony for the concert in Jan! (Come and buy tickets from me... ) :D

The thoughts..

2009-10-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

School has started for one week already and I'm getting used to it.

New classmates, new class - to me it seems weird and I really miss my 'younger brother' and my 'daddy', which is in the next class.

Band is still alright, and I finally managed to play a solo bar in Jap Grap successfully! Guess that is the present you want, don't you?

Had photoshoot today. Felt really great to be able to take a nice group photo together. It just reminds me of the good old days, where each class will take photo together. Nice feeling.

Hasn't been revising my work since the first day of school. SO TIRED!

What's the problem with you?!

2009-10-04T21:59:00.000+08:00

When there is only one or two groups of people who has an issue with you, it might be the problem with them.

But when everyone is finding fault at you, then it might be the problem with yourself.

And let me tell you my dear readers, mine's the former.

Look at Derrick, he has a issue with the RPWS bastards. But over at Moulmein, everything is alright, never heard of any complains. The problem with the RPWS people is that they create politics, and other people got tugged in without the knowing what's going on.

Am going to have sectionals at the first day of school. HOW LUCKY. Now I know why people quitted band. In the past, it was alright. But now, I'm finding it a hindrance. Look at how hatred can change a person into.

Thanks to people like you, I have changed. Look at how I'm going to treat you in future, fucktards.

An epitome of disrespect.

2009-10-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

My section leader has sent the section regarding nitty-gritty matters in the section.

I can see that the section has not been giving due respect to the new SL and also, the PP hasn’t been doing her job in the section as well.

At least, when I was a section leader, I cared more about their needs and we were very good friends then. I guess that marks the difference between the treatment the former SL and the current SL.

I wouldn’t say that Christine hasn’t been doing her job well. She has other things to do, such as being a librarian and also the ticketing officer for Reflections. But still, the ability to multitask is crucial in the band. Unlike the past, where a person rarely gets 3 jobs to do at the same time for each concert. I find that she couldn’t handle it that well.

One question I would reflect on myself and would ask her is that, if I were able to handle my section well, sent out emails and requests in a few hours time, why can’t her? There was once where Stanley sent me an email to update on particulars, I have done it swiftly. So being the case, I would have to question in the ability to ‘multitask’. On the other hand, she needs to talk to the members. I haven’t been seeing the communication. In the past, Patricia and Junhao haven’t been close with the section. What I do is that I add my section mates on MSN; I talk to Junhao, understand why he wouldn’t come, and made him come for sectionals. This is very important.

At this juncture, where the new SL has already settled down, I wouldn’t advise her anymore on how she can do her job. Two reasons: 1) I believe she already has the technical know-how of how to manage a section from the secondary school days. 2) She has a PP to help her, unlike me, who has to literally take up both the duties of a PP and SL.

The PP and SL should also discuss the matter with the entire section and whether they are interested in the busking event. Now the section seems to be torn apart all because there is this issue – “I am the SL/ PP, so you should listen to me”. It has already defeated my purpose in the section. It used to be “I am just representing you (as a SL/PP), so other than that, we are all equal.”

I know the bad experience of discussing lingers in their minds. However, communication is important. I don’t see any attempt to bond our section year ones together. Times have changed.

I have decided to stop bothering myself too much in band and I has done a great job in securing myself in the top 10% in my diploma and cohort. That is all enough for me to vie for a place in university.

"To do well, other than knowing your responsibility and duties, communicate with your section-mates and understand them. Treat them equal and respect them."

New class is up!

2009-10-02T00:38:00.000+08:00

W56D.

Indeed, I was happy because 1) My 'terror' has ended - having to go through the same trouble 3 times per semester trying to introduce myself: "My name is Yan Ling". Ok, I still have to introduce myself, but at least I have lesser people to introduce myself to.

But sadly, 2) 'Competitive' classmates are back - Ricca, Ain and Mai! And that's not the worst. 3) I am going to have another 2 classmates which are on the Roll of Honours list. (Oh man, another tough 'fighting' and never-enough 'stressing' for myself to ensure that I do well in exams).

My mum keep telling me "just do your best. That's all important. So long as you make sure that you put in your effort, that will do." I wonder why I give myself so much stress. Perhaps, I've been dying to get into a university. I know my GPA is definitely not enough to prove myself yet.

"I must at least maintain my GPA, if not, increase it. I cannot afford to drop" mindset kept on lingering in my mind.

Must get that out soon.

SAT?

2009-09-30T15:40:00.000+08:00

I don't know why am I writing a blog post now (flu bug has come here to stay for the second time) and ok, I have been procrastinating about writing a post.

Just visited the doctor for some medicine and it's like an episode of 'laughter' for myself. I was wearing my favourite MJC PE shirt and the pharmacy technician asked me some random question like: "Is Mrs Lam still your principal?'. LOL!

Ok back to the topic. Results were out days ago and I was very very thankful that my results were not as bad as it can be. At least, I am going a step further to my goal - getting into a uni. :)

But I heard that you have to get a B4 in English for O's plus your GPA for 6 semesters before you will be granted a interview. Hopefully other people doing the same course as me don't do that well, so I will have a higher chance of getting in. SAT is also encouraged to be taken.

Have seen through some of the SAT questions and realised that it is not as hard. But I don't know where to register - or even, should I take the exam?

School will be starting next week and I really hope I can continue to work very hard and at least, maintain my current GPA. PP advisor haven't been replying my emails.

Groans*

PS: I will start to write my next and future entries in proper English.

Gathering with the ITE band clique.

2009-09-20T20:48:00.000+08:00

Was so happy when I finally get to see so many of my good friends in the ITE band!

And...

we managed to drag Fahrizah out of her house to meet us!

The 3 generation of french horn players!

That's the most talk-about photo about Gabriel so far that even sheena thinks he's handsome.

The cutest guy in the clique.

The whole bunch of us! <3

I have never felt so disappointed in people.

2009-09-11T22:16:00.003+08:00

I did try putting people in our section, as I thought they needed people.

In the end, look at what you have done to me.

Not trying to be personal here, but it seems like initially you wanted to give me face by saying ok. I do not want that. If the player really isn't good, tell me straight in the face. I rather you do that than to tell me next day through the SL.

Am really disappointed in the new management.

I get more and more tired of being in a band - a band whereby politics thrive, authority is important, playing is important, standards needs to be constantly VERY good, concerts after concerts in a year.

I realise myself losing my passion in band. I do not know why I went there for, I do not know why I should continue staying there. I am tired of having to see people being 'expectionally nice' to others, when in fact, they do not like one another. They could not accept one another's differences. All I see is cliques, and more cliques. I began to see more and more problems in them.

I have no longer enjoyed music making. All I have is pieces which I have to master before the concert. And after the concert, I'll dump the pieces away. Deadlines followed by deadlines.

Where's the old me in band? The one that makes jokes with one another, the bunch of people who does crazy things with me in the other band?

'I want to see more interactions with you and the others in the section'. Raymond is right, I am just like a open book. I do not hide my feelings from others. Therefore, I can't pretend as though all these never happened. The scar is there.

The stress I have in band is alot like what Haziq faced. He started to skip band practices just simply because of the tensions in the section. We are in the same boat.

I do not know how long I can force myself to stay there.

I want to be responsible for my own life. Flashes of idea kept coming to my mind. I wanted to help the society, rather than to perform for them. Performance is considered extravagant. Should I do community work? If I do that, I will be doing more meaningful things in life. I should start doing while I can.

People help one another, isn't it? I have received people's help in the past, and therefore I should contribute by helping others.

***

30%.

When my tolerance level reaches 10%, I'll quit.

I will end this misery for the sake of myself. Like what mum said, music making is not forever. Unless you are very sure that you will end up as a professional musician, if not, you will have to stop one day. I'm just ending it earlier.

I have wasted 2 years, adding on with the misery. How much time in my teenage life do I still want to waste?

I have nothing to lose already. If I want to play in a band again, I can always go to outside band. Just for leisure.

For now, maybe I'll skip all sectionals. I'll practice at home.

Auntie Lucy! <3

2009-09-10T11:13:00.000+08:00

Evil Mistress just messaged me a moment ago, saying that she saw Auntie Lucy filming.

Lucky her!

I have always loved Paris and Milan episodes but I can't seem to find time to watch as it always clashes with band practice. (Grrrrr)

***

In the meantime, some idiotic + childish moron came and decides to stir up everything once again.

What I can say is,

"If you have already decided and does not want to change anything, the PLEASE DO NOT BOTHER to open up mass conversation and ask for suggestions."

Isn't that apt for the situation?

What you have done is just a cover-up for yourself.

If you want people to respect you and try out your arrangements, you'd better jolly well be more humble and patient to offer explanations. Why started using a different tone, as if you are trying to argue?!

And should you even started a argument, better be more mature girl. Mature people knows how to handle arguments and therefore, will KEEP MATTERS LOW. Why should you even tell every single one that you are arguing with so-and-so and make other people take the blame? Childish you.

Who started mass convo everyone?
Who started to ask for suggestions?
Who started to change her tone of answering by using CAPITAL LETTERS AND 'FYI'?

you, you you!

Not that I am siding her, but you totally disgust me.

Do that again, and I'll not turn up for sectionals if you are taking.

At most I'll just quit band. I have nothing to lose. You are getting too arrogant.

D I S G U S T I N G.

Loves, W54J

2009-09-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

Been on a hiatus since Blogger's layout gave me problems in uploading photos.

Like the title said, this post is dedicated to my fellow classmates!

After the last UT has ended, we have been thinking on what we can do during the holidays. It's a pity that most of them have events, suck as attachments and overseas trip, but nevermind! Meet out soon ok? I want to go have a few more rounds of running soon!

And and and, Hui Qing!

Let's plan for the surprise birthday party! :D Love ya!

How dare you!

2009-08-24T20:06:00.000+08:00

How dare you reject my decision of opting out from the band committee.

I have already said, I don't want to be inside, I don't even want to face all the ugly people, backstabbing one another and doing stupid things.

No dumb person would allow himself/herself to be criticised in front of the whole band one year later, during the Annual General Meeting.

But then again, having yourself in the committee seems to make yourself look better in your resume in the future.

Seriously la, if I get into ADPP, I won't even be in school for like the 2nd semester of year 3, how would I be able to go for meetings when I won't be in school?!

I think first. Basket.

I am very sure.

2009-08-17T23:13:00.004+08:00

孩子们在自己喜欢的东西面前，是绝对不会犹豫不决的。因为他们知道，如果错过，就只能哭泣了。

How true.

I am very glad that people have voted for me. Even though I have not done my job well as a sectional leader and being on the quiet side in band.

But I have decided. I won't go for the band committee.

What happen in the band once is enough for me to deter away from being a part of committee. The emotions involved and making yourself feeling worthless is bad enough for me to experience.

Plus, if I got into the ADPP, I guess I won't be even in school for the whole semester. So what's the point of me going to vie for committee post when I know I won't even have the time to commit?

I am now very sure, and I know I won't regret.
I don't have to be in a committee to show that I have capabilites to be a leader.
If I really like, I would already be over the moon and do a speech.
That's enough.

Understanding Test (UT) Schedule Out!

2009-08-12T13:48:00.003+08:00

Rahhs! UT3 will be due in 1 week time!

(and the worst thing is, I haven't really study!)

19 August: A301 Lab Management (08.30am @ W15B)
19 August: A221 Microbiology (02.00pm @ W15B)
21 August: A201 Chemistry (08.30am @ W16G)
24 August: A103 Anatomy and Physiology (4.30pm @ W14E)
25 August: A223 Biochemistry (02.00pm @ W14G)

The only thing I find it lucky is that all the exams are being held at W1.

***

Hahaha, I finally took the very first step. I won't say that I feel happy doing it. But I realise I can find time to sleep at home. Thinking back, I think I have really drain myself too much.

Anyway, AGM will be held next week.

TIME TO STEP DOWN PEOPLE YAY!

Reminicse.

2009-08-05T23:38:00.005+08:00

I have decided to have another reflection on the topic posed by my facilitator. That is because I find my answer is not a complete one. There are some other things which I wanted to put down, but could not do so as I find it not apt to put it as a school reflection journal.

So here's the question:

"Have you ever stood up for something you believe in and was it worth it in the end?"

Dear listening soul,
Till today, I have no idea if I had really stood up for something I believe in. Let me try and recall some of the major episodes in my life thus far.

1. 2007 - Making a big decision to retake my O levels and go to ITE.

I must admit, that is my most heart-breaking period in my life. Really. Not being enrolled into any of the polytechnics, this kind of feeling is left etched in my mind. 'Where to go? MI, poly or ITE?' is what I have been on my mind all the time. Initially, I didn’t feel that bad because I find that L1R4 of 19 points isn’t that bad. But as soon as I see all my friends getting enrolled and all, it gets saddening. I feel left out. In my mind was, ‘Why all my friends are getting into polytechnic, when my aggregate is almost the same as them?’

At this point, I really want to thank my uncle, who actually came over and talk to me and advise me on what I can do next. He has always been someone who gives good advices, and helped me in many ways.

A BIG THANK YOU TO YOU. ;)

So, I have decided to retake my O’s because the aggregate is not good enough to compete for, at that point. As I don’t want to waste my time, I have actually went to ITE. I used to be rather sceptical about ITE, as my impression about the school is: a group of students who skip school, having fights for the slightest reason, not interested in studies… During my one semester with them, I find that some of them really ain’t that bad. There are still studious students there, like Lawson. And I had two really good friends there, Alicia and Jing Jie. They are always encouraging and they are very supportive of what I did. When I told them I’m going to leave ITE for polytechnic next year, they were very sad, but they wished that I will end up there. (For me, polytechnic is a figment of imagination) I can say it is really a tough decision to choose whether to leave ITE at that point in time, because I’m still waiting for the exam dates and I don’t know what the future holds. ‘What if I never do well? What am I supposed to do? I will waste one semester and in the end, go back to ITE’. Of course, my module chair isn’t that supportive but fortunately, my advisor secretly supports me, and wants me to go and try out.

I must say, I am really fortunate. Look at where I am now. RP. So, for this episode in my life, I have made the right decision to leave ITE. I am so happy that I am in the course that I wanted to be in, and really enjoying my stay in RP studying.

2. 2009 Friendships in Band.
I don’t want to repeat the story for what I know umpteenth times. I have not sided any one, from the start to the end. Now, I don’t even want to be close with anyone in the band already. It is very saddening when people start to leave and you realise you are all alone. I rather be alone if that’s the case. I have been going home with my classmates majorly, and I find that I enjoy those moments more than the time I went home with band people. I don’t know why. Perhaps, I am tired of it. More simply put, I think I have lost my passion in band.

Annual General Meeting will be due in 1 week plus time. I promised myself, no matter what happens, I will do my best in being a section leader, till the day I step down. I won’t bring troubles to anyone.

Sand, thanks for the postcard. You are right, I miss those times in HK. I guess that was my happiest time. Everything has gone well then, but it seems so far away now. I grew up from all these experiences, right? Maybe now is the time whereby I have decided to avoid all the problems. But I haven’t made the decision. I think I won’t quit, but I will start to MIA from band practices once I have trained the new sectional leader. That is the best solution I can think now.

I LOVE THE ALLIES STILL. n\/n ;)

3. 2008-2009 To You.
I don’t know what I am feeling now, but you don’t have to feel weird or anything like that. We are still friends, right? I sincerely wish you all the best in your life. Thanks for the memories. How I wish there would be a time-machine, which can allow us to go back to the times when all is well. But even so, I guess I won’t change anything about it. All these little episodes made us who we are now, right?

People change and grow up as times go by. In these few months, both of us went on different ways, we all made new friends and form new cliques. It was till the point when everything went crumbling down, and none of us were able to pick up the pieces. We had never discussed things about ourselves, and I simply know too many things that shouldn’t be known. I have neither clarified with you. We left things the way it is.

Now, I don’t know how you have been, and we behave like strangers when we see one another.
But still, I want to thank you for not publicizing it. At least, things can be left quiet. Isn’t that so? Though not a happy ending, but it least it was peaceful.

Gena told me this:

‘you did, but you didn’t realise’.

For that, let me continue to find that out. On my own. The sky will always be blue, isn’t that so? ;)

Wonderful time spent with my lovely classmates.

2009-08-01T00:15:00.002+08:00

Today I had a whole lot of fun.

Play hand wrestling, push ups, standing board jump and shuttle run and all. It's so funny can!:D

So tired, how I wish I were with them during all those times in the past. But, it's not too late huh!

Take away the troubles, will you?

2009-07-31T11:08:00.000+08:00

Was feeling nostalgic.

Perhaps, it's all a growing up process - people mindset become mature, things changed.

But, what stays the same?

"The only thing that stay the same is change."

Ya, you missed the past, so do I!

But, do you think there is a way that things can go back to the way it were? No. Things have changed, some people left our lives and at the same time, people are coming into your life. To say the truth, the feeling kind of 'empty out' as time goes by.

I have already stop talking to you, and have not done anything already. Can't we just walk past one another, and say hi? Why must you still 'avoid me', and say you missed the past? It just doesn't make sense.

Time for some happy entries.

2009-07-29T18:20:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK!

I've just realised there are too many unhappy entries on my blog recently, so I decided to write something light hearted today.

How should I start. Ok school first.

Well, school has been okay. Have just finish my second series of test last week and I think I have did pretty okay. I hope the grades would turn out really fine but I guess I won't be in the roll of honours already.

GOT TO WORK REALLY REALLY HARD TO GET INTO A UNI!

I just don't know why, I have been eating quite alot recently. Don't know is it because I find that the lessons are getting easier, and thus, I finish my work early and finding people to go down to buy food/snacks or even, getting out of school to buy macdonalds. I think I got to control what I eat already! Or else all the fats will clog my blood vessels, which is really bad. I think I put on weight already. Got to ask hui qing out soon to see if I have becoming fatter.

Luckily Claire is keen on going jogging after school or something. =)

Next up, band.

(ponders for awhile)

Nevermind. Shall skip that. Nothing much to update. Not many people in my section have been coming to band. Lots of scores to sight read.

Next, etc etc etc.

Relationship problems. (Obviously, not mine. haha. I wasn't even attached.)

I just find that sometimes it's really a waste of time in relationships at our age. Some guys are really childish, and being irresponsible. Some, they gave crappy excuse and wanted to end it, and I really find it invalid after hearing it. But most importantly, I want to highlight that whatever decision you make, make sure that you don't regret.

As for me, I've been through it. Now, I'm slowly letting it go already. I just thought to myself, as long as I have somehow tried it, and I know the answer somehow, then at least I don't leave myself with lots of question at the end of the day. I really want to thank those people who have helped me during that period. Cheerios.

2 more weeks, let's all try and make it meaningful alright, W54J? ;D

2009-07-24T18:38:00.002+08:00

Perhaps, it's time to let go.

Whether is it the problem with the section, or my problems with you.
I am already trying to scratch it off.
But something is still holding me back.
I don't know why.

Strangely, I don't mind playing 1st clarinet all the way throughout band practice.
When people give me comments, ask me to plan for sectionals, I can't seem to be bothered.

We seem like strangers huh. The problem is with me or you?

Counting the days...

2009-07-15T20:22:00.002+08:00

4 more weeks, and I will have new classmates again.

How pathetic. I bonded with my classmates only like during the 8th week.

Anyway, chemistry and lab management UT down already. And I guess I did okay for it. At least, I know I have tried my best and I did not fall asleep during UT, unlike San. (LOL)

Somehow I don't look forward to anymore band practices. During this 'long break' from band, I realise I have SO MUCH more free time. Thinking back, I realised I have not been spending quality time with my friends and family, and sometimes I don't even see my family in 2 to 3 days. (I keep thinking about quitting!) Only studies interest me now.

All the things that happen, all the things that made people become distant to one another. To me, it doesn't really matter now. Well, I can always join an outside band right?

Got to study for biochemistry already.

ciao.

2009-07-07T21:10:00.002+08:00

Seventh Night of July... Tanabata!

Ok anyway,

School was okay today. Super dry topic on digestive system. I realise there's so much to study, yet the 6P is not helping! Only talking about how the sandwich get digested in the body. =(

UT is starting all over again.

Lab Management on fri, and Chemistry on Monday.

I seriously hope I can do well for it, and I hope my all-time favourite classmates, Raymond, Claire, Wan Ting, Vincent, Liting and the rest will do real well for their UT. I pass my luck to you guys! :) YOU ALL CAN DO IT!

2009-07-03T10:24:00.002+08:00

I am at lowest peak again.

=.=

I don't know why am I still dwelling on it.
Perhaps I haven't let go.

I mean, EVEN IF something had happened between us, can't we even stay as friends anymore?!

And don't forget, he doesn't know that I know so much already. And he may not know that I have acted 'according' to what he told her.

So, I don't get it. Stop giving excuses that you are busy and ALWAYS BUSY (I know you are going nuts with FYP.).

2009-06-27T14:21:00.000+08:00

That's why we must always be careful when we are doing lab work.

I don't know why, but different parts of my skin got irritated. It feels itchy and red at the same time. I wonder does it got anything to do with the HCl and NaOH which I was dealing with this week.

I think I better see a doc soon.

I think...

2009-06-26T09:35:00.003+08:00

Problem Definition Template (PDT) for the post of the day:

What We Know:
1. I know everyone's not happy with one another.
2. I know there is an internal conflict.
3. I know there must be a way to solve issues.
4. Things are not like before.
5. There must be misunderstandings.

What We Don't Know:
1. What is the crux of the problem?
2. Will we be able to thrash things out, if there is a thrashing out session?
3. Should bad things happen, will we be able to handle the situation ourselves?
4. Should there be a meditator?
5. Will everyone say out everything?
6. Is thrashing out session necessary?

What we Need To Find Out:
1. The crux of the problem.
2. How to handle a thrashing out session.

***********************

For now, let's all not make anymore comments to the situation, please. This is already bad enough. This hurts and affects everyone. A thrashing out session is all we need - to clear any misunderstandings. Although I know this is not the best way to handle a situation and also the last resort. But no matter what, even if we have to settle for a bad thing, at least we don't regret - am I right? (:

Yan Ling joined the allies n\/n

2009-06-21T22:35:00.001+08:00

Ok, actually this post is nothing much.

I had the strangest outing with Song Ren and Aizat after school on thursday. It's like we know one another for at least a year by now, but I wasn't close with them at all.

Cool huh! Look forward to the next meeting soon!

2009-06-18T09:10:00.006+08:00

As I promised, photos for Viva la Symphonie III.

I'm so going to miss you guys, especially Yee Yern, JunHao and Patricia.

****

Lousy week. Got lousy grades for Anatomy and Physiology due to being restless and not participating much. I think I half screwed UT as well. Got to pick myself up soon to prevent crying over GPA at the end of the semester.

I'm slowing trying to so called 'forget' what has happened these 2 days. I don't know if it's just my one sided thinking (high chance). Talked to many people already. Perhaps in my own mind, I'm slowly giving up. It's not involve any other persons; just that we are busy with our own lives and neglected the other. We ran out of things to talk, that's for sure. The way we talk is simply not like how friends talk to friends anymore. WHAT HAS HAPPENED?!

Finally, the concert is over.

2009-06-14T11:27:00.002+08:00

Viva La Symphonie III has ended.

Thanks to Hui Qing, Ming Hon, Xue Hui, Kay Yoke and her BF, John, Samuel, Benjamin, Wen Yang, Eng Sam, Seng Jin, Edwin, Rajesh, Felicia, Joanne, KK for coming down and support me!

I put the photos up another day ba! :)

***

I'm still confused seriously. Talking to me about your eyecandies is damn wad. fine. so if i asked about that, you don't have to keep clarifying to me. It seems so wad la. I really missed those times when we were still chatting happily. But now, it's all about your eyecandies. I accept the fact that we have sort of run out of topics. Stop saying things you don't mean. You keep twisting your words!

Person A: muahaha
so even i aim
u dunno
lol
but i guess i not aiming lah
for sure
><((((o*> -Yan L: u aiming who now?
i tot u say dun have?
then now have?
PerSon A: lol
xD
i say
even if
i aim
u dunno then
lol
><((((o*> -Yan L: lol hah unless i go notice la.
but i v slow in those stuff one la. cuz i know for me
i will have alot of guy friends
Person A: lol
><((((o*> -Yan L: but no one will aim me one for sure.
so being inexperienced, i wont know!
haha
Person A: muahahahahahhaha
><((((o*> -Yan L: but of course, when u aim
u sure tell me one mah
haha
so i will somehow know
Person A: xD
no!
wun tell
><((((o*> -Yan L: wa piang!
i'm ur ptgf leh
must share one
Person A: lol
ptgf
when aim
then forget pt le
lol
but well
told u
eye see see now
lol

Person A: eye candies is see see for me
if aim
the other eye candies will be gone
lol
told u le
i dun feel anything
if not
i would have hug and all le
wun told u
that i dun want right
haha
aiyah
u see u get it not ok
><((((o*> -Yan L: haha
Person A: lol
u dun seem like u get what i mean one

2009-06-09T21:09:00.002+08:00

我不知道我到底怎么了。

是压力太大吗？还是本来就有问题了？

我发现我没办法和其他的人沟通。没有人知道我的感受。做一个 Section Leader 不是想象中那么简单。大小事都需要我去处理。当我做了某个决定，有些人又不高兴。讽刺的话都会说出来。

原本以为，只要我离开，什么东西都会解决。我不需要继续的达到每个人的要求，做一些我不喜欢的工作。

他们现在做什么都几乎不会问过我。也许，我不是一个值得他们尊敬的朋友吧。

最近发生了很多事情。。我开始怀疑我去练习是为了什么。。是为了让自己玩得更好吗?还是为了要做 Section Leader 该做的事？

我好想好好的休息。

RAHHS!

2009-06-09T20:24:00.002+08:00

Ok, I'm seriously frigging mad.

WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE PEOPLE THESE DAYS!

YOU COME BE THE SECTION LEADER LA! I WILL BE VERY HAPPY TO DO SO.

I SHALL SEE WHAT YOU CAN DO WITH THE SECTION!

Every little thing I do, people are just not happy.

If I do it your way, isn't I'm just following your orders?! It's crazy can!

I'm not someone who will just keep quiet. I have my limits.

Stop climbing over my head.

Ensembles! Concert.

2009-06-05T22:38:00.003+08:00

(I'm still updating of previous week's stuff)

Ya! Like the title says, I had my Ensembles! Concert last thurs.

These are the photos:

Next up, Viva La Symphonie Concert next saturday and PBL Symposium!

(I still left with one ticket. Although SOMEONE! wanted to buy and not turn up, but I turn down his offer. groans* )

***

We haven't been talking much for months already. I don't want this to carry on. Should I just let it be? Start replying me please.

Clearing up the spiderwebs Part 1

2009-05-28T09:09:00.004+08:00

Evil mistress is nagging at me for not updating. Ok, I have not been updating for 2 weeks plus already.

Lots of things have been going on in my life. I'm so busy with the never ending Understanding Tests, band practices and etc.

I think I haven't been able to do a good job thus far. I'm so tired.

AND AND AND!

I haven't even sell a single ticket for Viva-La-Symphonie! I have to pay $100 next week!

SO HUI QING, MING HON, XUE HUI, BENJAMIN,RAJESH, SAMUEL, JOANNE, KK, FELICIA, FAHRIZAH COME TO MY CONCERT!

(ok then just nice I sell all 10. LOL)

Next up, the Claripups steamboat session.

Ok now.. PART 2!

2009-05-10T21:59:00.002+08:00

我很高兴。

因为。。。

我想通了！

其实，我不需要给我自己太大的压力，也不需要想太多。是你的，终究会是你的。

我只要做回我自己，就可以了。

反正当初，我也不是现在这个样子啊!

也许，当你对一个人的期待越高，你永远都不会满足，你也会更在乎。可能因为这样，所以我开始害怕。

我会做回我自己的!反正输赢都还没出来，我因该顺其自然! :D

I'm glad everything's fine.

2009-05-03T20:56:00.005+08:00

Another episode of me thinking too much I guess.

Yeah, I sent him a message and he replied.

PTBF! I suddenly have the urge to talk to you! Can you talk to me? :'(
Just saw ur msg... yes yes? u working right?

Nope... I just realised that I haven been talking to you nicely since school starts :(

Lol... i see... i tot slping on sunday de!

I sleep for one hour plus only.. cuz guilty conscious.. Don't you think we don't talk that nicely these 2 weeks? It's either band or school work. So I thought you dun want to talk to me already.

Lol! haha... aiyah. still consider talk what! and got sku... slp early mah! and tired

Is like I think I keep talking and complaining about my own things. I forget that you have your own problems too. :( After what has happened to Sandra, I worry that we don't talk anymore.

LOL! Sandra de case diff la i think.. got talk what.. well.. nth much ar me! haha.. ensemble till siao and concert dun want to screw up only... somemore ytd.. simon not very happy cos not full attendance for clar ensemble

So actually, there isn't a problem. Probably is the fear in me. I'm very glad that you are understanding, and still helping me in my school work. Although now life seems real busy, but at least we still talked and keeping things alive. =)

I want this feeling of uneasiness to go away.
Don't fall deep please.

Everything goes downhill..

2009-05-02T08:39:00.006+08:00

I don't know what wrong with him.

Joanne says he seems ok, but he has became quite blur and isn't as talkative as last time.

I know it's has got nothing to do with me. But I don't know how to cheer him up. This thursday, he trying his best to talk like what he is in the past. He talked to me first. This time, I wouldn't go and ask him why because I know the reason very well - he has got FYP, he's tired.

To me, it seems like he don't want to talk to me anymore. Yesterday, I asked him whether he wants to play a game with me, but he did not reply me at all. I sent an sms asking him if he has Eugene's number, but he just say dun have but he got someone else's. The way I see it is that he seems ok again, replying me again. But I just say 'oh. sorry to disturb you.' AND HE NEVER EVEN REPLY AFTER THAT. I went offline without even saying bye, he didn't bother about it also! No offline messages, nothing!

I feel sad. Is like one day he's nice, the next day he's not. My mood just goes through a roller-coaster ride. When he does something nice, I will be at the apex, when he treats me coldly, I will be at the lowest point of the roller coaster.

Even reeve says that he's weird.
He doesn't tease me anymore. He doesn't call me by nicknames already. :(

The mad rush.

2009-04-22T22:02:00.002+08:00

School starts and I think I had a bad start too (in studies I mean).

I have lost touch with presenting and the modules I had now are much more tougher than before. Somehow I regret a little for 'volunteer' to choose a 5 day semester. LOL.

As the modules are getting difficult, most of the people are chiong-ing to go to the library to borrow tons of science books and I thought it was quite pressurizing on my side.

BECAUSE IT IS ONLY THE 3RD DAY OF SCHOOL!

As my holidays are coming to an end...

2009-04-19T21:34:00.010+08:00

...I should post up the remaining photos I have taken but not yet published on my blog!

Ok so here it is!

1) Outing @ Vivo and Keppel Bay with Hui Qing.

Hui Qing needed much of a cooling down period and chit-chatting so we met at Vivo and headed down to Keppel Bay after an 'late lunch'. I must say that the lunch we ate is sooo tasty (no wonder I patronize that stall everytime I went there)!

We chat about lots of things over there, and stroll a little, and took photographs along the way. Now I shall show u all the photos.

Our photography skills have improved! Hui Qing's in charge of taking the photo, while I'm in charge of finding nice angles! :D

Ok next up, Claripup's Sakae Session!

We had SLA Preview on thursday this week. So after having a tweeny-tiny bit of sectionals with Simon, Sandra, Gena, Yi Zhen, Jun Hao and I went to Sakae to eat, in a way to help celebrate Yi Zhen turning 18! :D

Nah! I didn't drink the whole bottle by myself. I only drank a few sips.
Me with the birthday girl! Oh, and my debut appearance with my new specs.

Mr Green Frog with his right eye gone.

Now, we even got a continuation for Claripups!

Claripups, 就是不一样！

From Sandra's blog,

Gena - playing 比较好的人, 讲话就是不一样! (:

Haziq - 混血儿，讲话就是不一样! (:

Junhao - the largest e-flat clar player，讲话就是不一样! (:

Patricia - 肥猫，讲话就是不一样! (:

Punitha - 会说华语的印度人，讲话就是不一样! (:

Sandra (ME!) - 有钱人，讲话就是不一样! (:

Stanley - 老的人，讲话就是不一样! (:

Yanling - 爱吃饭的人，讲话就是不一样! (:

Yizhen - 变态的人，讲话就是不一样! (:

Ok! That shall concludes my holidays!

I hope my classmates are friendly... and first day work shall not be difficult. :)

Late Updates Part 2 (LOL!)

2009-04-05T22:02:00.003+08:00

School's starting in 2 weeks time.

OH DAMN IT!

Since there isn't any band practices for this week due to RP's Graduation Ceremony, I got to catch up with many of my friends! So far, I have catch up with my besties (MH, Evil Mistress and XH), my clique (Eng Sam, Samuel, Wen Yang, Edwin, Seng Jin and Benjamin) and my ITE band Mates (Only Joanne, KK and Felicia so far, but I'll catch up with Fahrizah and Azmi tomorrow!)

Ok, So these are the photos for the gathering of KK, Joanne and Felicia that day (OMG. I'm dead. I can't even remember when I went out with them! I hope they won't whack me. =( )

Look at the amount of ice cream we ate!

Ok the highlight of this meetup will be the flying ice cream. Felicia was so bent of making fried ice cream so she keep scraping and it flew all over the place (it was hard to scape. REALLY) So I ate her 'flying ice cream 3 TIMES! (I'm can't help but to count =P) and Joanne got it once. Luckily KK stopped Felicia from doing frying more ice cream (Thanks!) :D

To Fahrizah, Azmi and Joanne, SEE YOU TOMORROW! :D

Late Updates.

2009-03-30T19:25:00.002+08:00

Let's not talk about what happened last sunday. These are the photos taken. :B

Ya, so Joanne asked me to go to Jacob de Haan's Masterclass in Moulmein on Sunday. After that, we all hang out at orchard.

Random Photo.

Ok, sorry for procrastinating.

2009-03-24T23:04:00.000+08:00

(Qing: Where are the photos that you promised to upload?)

Ok here it is!

I'm so glad that MH loves the present we made for her! :D

Whose's birthday is coming up? (XH!) haha.

We should meet up again REAL SOON!

A Series of Unfortunate Events.

2009-03-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

Friday the thirteenth is indeed a jinx day.

On last month's friday the thirteenth, my sister called me to tell me that she couldn't log on to my computer, despite the fact that she has typed in the correct password. In the end, I spent two day laptop-less.

On friday this week, I cut my hand against some rusty metal while working. What a bad luck I had!

Shall post up photos on yesterday tomorrow! :D